FALLING IN LOVE
i miss the days when falling in love meant spending your whole day thinking about that person. i miss the days when falling in love meant appreciating every second you could get with that person even if it just meant hearing their voice. I miss the days when falling in love meant giving your everything to make sure that person knew without any doubt that you love them. I miss the days when falling in love meant fighting everything just to be with that person. I miss the days when falling in love was simple and both people gave equal effort to making sure the other person KNEW there was no one else in this world who could ever make them feel the way they do.
Now, falling in love turns into being in love which means struggle. Proving love through fights and disagreements. Being in love with a prejudged comfort leaves out any need to prove anything. One becomes lazy and forgets what they fought so hard for in the beginning. Being in love means falling into complacency where happiness only reaches so high only to come crashing right back down. Being in love no longer lives off of need, being in love lives off of assumptions. Feelings die and are replaced with security. Both sides need not make any extra effort because it is supposedly understood that each loves each other.
I wish i could fall in love all over again. I wish these feelings of complacency can be replaced with that rush of newness and pure appreciation for the presence of that one person. I want my heart to race, my palms to sweat, and my words to stumble. I want to feel nervous and question myself to constantly present my best just so that person can KNOW i am the one. I’m tired of feeling comfortable. I want to dive in heart first without knowing that anyone will be there to catch me. I miss falling in love! I would rather just keep falling than to ever reach that place of just being.
Sweep me off my feet so i can fall and you don’t need to catch me…just hold my hand so we can keep falling together…
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